it iz thiZ dAy...

the highlighT of todAy wAz confirminG the tiMe and veNue of my 1sT yeAr quAlification orAl exAm.....

it'Z kindA liKe shoppinG for a houZe...wAlked arouNd to checK ouT vAriouz confereNce roomZ and theN approAch the appropriAte adminiztrAtor and prAy thAt the dAte and timesloT thAt i propoZed are avAilable...

theN it'Z juZ liAson witH all the profzzZ...i'lL need one more prof thougH...a totAl of 7 = 5 actuAl + 2 bAckup~

yeZ - todAy'z anotheR dAy....wheN i didn'T feeL liKe sociAlizing with anY grouP of peopLe but i felT liKe joininG in my lAb for luncH bcuZ i cAn't keep sAying "no" (which i did for prettY mucH moZ of lAst weeK). luckilY i got the corneR seAt and juZ kepT quieT eAting my food and theN wAit to be dizmizZed...whicH i wAlked off quicklY - if my lAb peopLe actuAlly noticed me theY muZ thinK i'M a weiRdo..

welL...i aM.

mY mAss-sociAl gene iz intermittentlY supprezZed?

mY loNetime gene iz overexprezZed.



"thiZ dAy" by sodAgreen...(concerT versioN)


i thinK qingfenG (sodAgreen'z vocAlz) foRced himseLf not to compoZe any sonG for abouT a yeAr......and theN he wroTe thiZ sonG......i kneW thiZ froM some intervieW he receiVed...


"izn'T it viVid enougH?
plZ lie dowN...
let me cArezz you gentlY...
bcuZ you muZ be tiRed froM hurtinG my feelingZ...

izn'T it shArp enougH?
juZ looK at my scAr...
overcominG youR brAvery witH my gentlenezZ...
smilinG at you (who iz pAnting)...


i'Ve neveR felT any rezponsibilitY towArdz anyoNe befoRe..
there'Re too mAny superficiAl phoninezZ in the blurrY eyeZ of strAngerz..

plZ alloW me to be bY youR side...
wAlking througH thiZ streeT witH you.

plZ alloW me to be bY youR side...
rememberinG togetheR...


izn'T it awesoMe enougH?
i cleArly knoW...
hidinG withiN youR shArpnezz...
proudlY depreciAting myseLf...

izn'T it glAring enougH?
the flower'Z alreAdy stAined with bLood...
botH my hAndz are fullY pricKed by you..
and i stilL wiPe awAy youR teArz dezpiTe my pAin..


i'Ve neveR felT any rezponsibilitY towArdz anyoNe befoRe..
we hAve seeN hoW eAzy it iz to fAbricate liez thAt wilL teAr uz into pieceZ...
there'Re too mAny superficiAl phoninezZ in the blurrY eyeZ of strAngerz..

plZ alloW me to be bY youR side...
wAlking througH thiZ streeT witH you.

plZ alloW me to be bY youR side...
rememberinG thiZ dAy togetheR...


there'lL be a dAy wheN we'lL botH die...
dizcArding the memorY of ouR meAninglezZ nAmez..

there'lL be a dAy wheN we'lL botH forgeT...
we oNce teAred oveR ouR pAthetic and bAdly acTed storY...

there'lL be a dAy wheN we'lL botH sigH...
and recAll witH smileZ the sillY beAuty we oNce owN...

let'Z juZ leT ouR noW pAzz uz bY...


plZ leT me hoLd youR hAnd...
and plZ hold my hAnd...
leT uz shiveR witH compleTe understAnding...
and you wilL knoW me...


plZ alloW me to be bY youR side..
and wAlk througH thiZ streeT togetheR witH you...

plZ alloW me to be bY youR side..
rememberinG thiZ dAy togetheR..


lookinG at you througH my teArz...
freedoM iz the prerogAtive we need...
you'Re smilinG...
while i'M smilinG...
we'Re smilinG...
on thiZ dAy."


...feelZ liKe he'Z writinG foR someoNe who hurT hiM reAlly bAdly but stilL he choozeZ to loVe and be witH....foreveR.

interestinG. <3


thiZ dAy...everydAy.
illZ...