Friday, July 11, 2014

heAling under a rAinbow sonG...

how couLd someone be sucH a ridiculouz liAr?

how couLd someone be sucH a dizhonezT persoN?

how couLd someone not hAve any senZe of loyAlty?

~~~

angeR doez hAve an informidAble wAy of consuminG anyoNe...

the onlY wAy to curB angeR iz to forgiVe.

forgivinG allowz one to becoMe strongeR and betteR.

forgivinG iz not forgettinG, but rememberinG with lezz or no pAin.

witH forgivenezZ giveN...the heAling beginz.

sucH goldeN wordzzZ...thAt repoweRed my miNd.

i am supeR glAd to hAve bhoP in my life.

i wilL loVe bhoP foreveR...

bhoP - simplY a greAt and wiZe humAn beinG~!!!

~~~


"rAinbow" by amiT.

"
my neAt and tidY bed...
iz wheRe you'lL confide in me...
wheRe you'lL hoLd me and crY tiL dAwn...

awAiting for hAppinezz in my kitcheN...
on a certAin vAlentine'z dAy...
you weRe the one dininG witH me insteAd...

in my nArrow closeT spAce...
iz my hiddeN littLe heAven~
wheRe i wArmly welcoMe you~

our loVe is very similAr...
we'Re botH hurT by meN...
but we juz kepT fAlling alonG our wAy...


wheN the skY becomez dArk...
wheN the air temperAture becomez abnormAl...
i wilL persizT witH my unbeAtable determinAtion.

undeR shArp and condezcendinG stArez...
heAring ruthlezZ remArkzzZ...
i wilL gentlY wrAp myseLf up...
witH a rAinbow of romAnce~
"


lovinG bhoP~
illZ w.h.Y?

Friday, July 04, 2014

yeAh: a neW forM of arT

the toughezT tAsk in life iz to be one'z true seLf.

it'z eveN hArder to accept and declAre one'z true seLf:

sexuAlity
chAracter
personAlity
perzpectivezzZ
(or simplY beinG who you are)


whY?

whY doez one cAre so mucH about whAt otherz thinK about hiM?

whY doez she even cAre about otherz in the firzt plAce?

~~~

i admiRe loRde - she iz simplY beinG her tAlented seLf...creAting tunez and writinG lyriczzZ thAt are supeR uniQue and honezT:



"tenniz courT" by loRde


yeAh na krAb.
illZ.

Thursday, June 12, 2014

the boY from the southerN seA~


"the girL from the southerN seA" bY teresA tenG~


"
the pAlmy wind teazez the silver wAvezzZ...
the settinG suN peekz througH the chillAxing cloudzzZ...
seeinG someone sittinG aloNe on the goldeN beAch...
sucH a lovelY littLe girL~

her eyez glitteR like stArz~
her eyebrowz curVe liKe littLe crescenT moonZ~
she'z weAring a brighT red sArong...
az red az the arecA on her lipzzZ~

she'z sighinG lightlY...
sighinG abouT thAt heArtlezz boY...
droppinG teArz of sAdnezz...
dAmpening her red sArong and whiTe blouZe...

aYe the girL from the southerN seA...
you shouLdn't be too sAd...
so younG at sixteeN and a hAlf~
let go of your losT dreAm...
a neW boY wilL accompAny you~
"


sighinG...
illZ~

Tuesday, June 10, 2014

the ghozT of uz.


"the ghozT of you and me" by bbmAk.


after so mAny yeArz, i finAlly undersTood what thiz song meAnz.

definitelY my fAve bbmAk sonG...

gonnA keeP tryinG to moVe on...
illZ.

Tuesday, May 13, 2014

life lessonzzZ.

why do the life lessonzzZ i atteNd alwAyz cosT moneY??



sometimezzZ...i juz gottA pAy my wAy througH to eArn some mAturity.

moneY mAkez everythinG more meAningful? or lezz meAningful?

i usuAlly don'T cAre about moneY issues......i don'T eArn mucH az a grAd studenT but whAt i hAve iz enougH to sustAin a reAsonable quAlity of singLe life...

iz moneY importAnt to me? generAlly, no.

i am hAppy to spend moneY on tougH life lessonz...whicH wilL hopefullY mAke me into a betteR persoN in the long ruN.

whAt i regreT while livinG my life wilL be the wAsted tiMe and the amouNt of emotionz pouRed on unworthY issuez.

淡定,一切要淡定。


todAy iz.......a fuckinG bAd dAy.
illZ.

Saturday, April 05, 2014

onlY my teArz are reAl.

ameI - a rAre tAlent who soundzzZ perfecT liVe:



"i wannA be hAppy" by ameI~


"
i'M hurT by loVe once agAin.
it doezn'T mAtter?
i'lL treAt it az me growinG up.

it'z noT thAt i loVe lonelinezZ...
but i'M simplY borN with moRe lonelinezZ thAn anyoNe.
eveN if the worLd iz giveN to me...
i stilL owN nothinG.


i wannA be hAppy...
i wannA sleeP in peAce...
there'z a certAin someoNe...
who iz wArm only wheN i stoP my hugzzZ...
and stoP hAting only afteR depArting...
i shouLd hAve relinquisHed thiz loVe eArlier.

i wannA be hAppy...
i wannA lAugh out loud withouT a cAre...
the heArt hAz gone coLd...
everythinG iz unreAl...
onlY my teArz are reAl...


recAlling the pAzt...
thAnk you - to the one who hurT me.
perhApz i shouLd be optimizTic?
theN i wilL even enjoY lizteninG to the rAin~


i wannA be hAppy...
i wannA sleeP in peAce...
there'z a certAin someoNe...
who iz wArm only wheN i stoP my hugzzZ...
and stoP hAting only afteR depArting...
i shouLd hAve relinquisHed thiz loVe eArlier.

i wannA be hAppy...
i wannA lAugh out loud withouT a cAre...
the heArt hAz gone coLd...
everythinG iz unreAl...
my decizioN iz definitelY righT.
"


onlY teArz are reAl...
illZ...

Monday, March 31, 2014

the rAiny forT.

needed to ruN in the rAin.

and the rAin cAme at the perfecT tiMe.

sorTed my miNd while runninG in the freezinG rAin.

perhApz my teArz bleNded in witH the freezinG rAindropz?

or were my teArz az cold az the freezinG rAindropz?

~~~

there'Z thiz shArp and smootH beNd along my fAve seAview ruN:





















sucH a shorT and strAight pAth...

folloWed by sucH a suddeN chAnge in directioN.

~~~



"i am not sAd." by stephAnie suN.


"
we'Re stAnding right outside your apArtment agAin.
(oNce again i am stAring at my phoNe)
in sileNce.
i'M unsuRe how lonG my seeminglY one-sided wAiting cAn persisT?

eveN thougH you're holdinG my hAnd...
i'M not in your heArt anymoRe.


i trulY understAnd...
thAt you didn'T fAll for someoNe elZe.
it'z me who wAzn't by your side wheN you were lonelY.
stoP lookinG at me to telL me you loVed me.
don'T hurT me.
i am noT sAd.
thiz iz nothinG.
buT i hAve no ideA why my teArz keep fAlling?!

let me leAve you.
let me begiN enjoyinG my freedoM.
the memoriezzZ we shAred...
and your shAdowz will continue to filL my miNd...
i am not a weAkling...
you shouLd know betteR thAn anyone elZe.
dezpiTe my lonelinezZ...
thiz wilL be my...
finAl forgivenezzZ.


huG me.
and huG me tightlY agAin.
plz alloW me to retAin youR wArmth in my heArt.
stoP apologizinG to me...
our loVe hAz eNded.
let our rightz and wrongz be goNe with the wiNd.
let me forgeT everythinG.
and i'lL mAke sure my life iz hAppier thAn yourz.


i trulY understAnd...
thAt you didn'T fAll for someoNe elZe.
it'z me who wAzn't by your side wheN you were lonelY.
stoP lookinG at me to telL me you loVed me.
don'T hurT me.
i am noT sAd.
thiz iz nothinG.
buT i hAve no ideA why my teArz keep fAlling?!

plz stoP explAining...
perhApz thiz endinG iz the besT for botH of uz.
it'z betteR for uz to breAkup now,
thAn to keeP drAgging on bcuz you don'T loVe me anymore.
let go of my hAnd.
let me leAve you.
let me wAlk on...
and reclAim my freedoM.
"

movinG on in a new directioN.
illZ w.h.Y?