queeR...
recentlY, i receiVed remArkz of concerN from 2 friendZ who obviouzlY cAre = Alex and ZY.
theY separAtely asKed me if i wAz ok....liKe whAt hAppened to me recentlY? the usuAl cheerfulnesS iz goNe......
Alex asKed me whiLe he sAw me on the skybridGe whAt hAppened.....cuZ he felT thAt i wAz not myself theze few dAyz....theN.....thAt was wheN i shoWed him the butterflY with 4 legZ, heY, so are butterflieZ insectz?
theN ZY sAw me sitting on the lobbY coucH after schooL......and he dropped by me and sAt next to me and stArted askinG me if i wAz ok....and he sAid i looK depressed...........
afteR ZY pAtted my shoulder and lefT......somehow Adrian cAme towardz me and asked whAt i wAz waiting for. i wAz smS-ing a growtH spelL to Agatha (cuZ she wAz at IMCB waiting for her ecoLi to groW) then...so i sAid coldly thAt i am sMs-ing......and theN sAid i am stAining cellz with 2ndAry Antibody and waiting for thAt. didn'T even look at hiM.....theN he sAid it waz so cold here why did i chooZe to sit here in the lobbY? i sAid i feeL liKe it. theN he wenT outside to sit at the opeN bencheZ.
the trutH iz....the 2ndAry Ab timing wAz up alreAdy! i wAz juZ so tired....i needed to sloucH and resT at the lobbY coucH..........so i did, and prActised 15min of mettA meditAtion.
mY.....i hoPe i am oK. perhApz i'M juZ too busY.....witH everythinG pilinG uP!!!!!!!!
anywAyz...beeN missinG tuitioN time and agAin.....
theN az for Adrian, now his new fouNd acAdemic compAnions will be Luqun and James. sigH........it felT weird lookinG at hiM sittinG witH them now in the lecT theAtre insteAd of witH me. howeveR, i juZ gottA let go of thiZ thoughT and stAy hAppy alone. he iz not a worthY friend i bliVe.
somehoW... i chAnged my subjecT combi. to mAtch hiz (not totAlly cuZ of hiM, it'Z inclusiVe of lotZa other reAsonz), and he choZe to grouP with hiZ new compAnions for one of the 7-dAy prActical thAt we hAve...........he cleArly hAd a choice, but he choZe it the otheR wAy. i cAn't be angrY or pissed off...or i don'T knoW, but if i were hiM, i would grouP with a "frieNd" who chAnged hiz combi to mAtch mine. juZ feeL so duH...
ah-hA....and another dAy....after the lecT @ LT20...i wz rushing off bAck to the lAb....so i sAid a quicK bYe specificAlly to ZY and Zhisheng...and non-specificAlly to Adrian. theN went up the stAirs...waiting for the crowd to exiT slowly...theN Adrian came up too and said something liKe "v sian, still hAve to wait until....blAh". and i did not respond at alL!!!! hahAaa...yAy, thAt'z the wAy illZ!!!!
gottA respond hiM the wAy he alwAyz reacted to whAtever i sAy = no responSe.
mAy all be welL and hAppy...
illZ...
theY separAtely asKed me if i wAz ok....liKe whAt hAppened to me recentlY? the usuAl cheerfulnesS iz goNe......
Alex asKed me whiLe he sAw me on the skybridGe whAt hAppened.....cuZ he felT thAt i wAz not myself theze few dAyz....theN.....thAt was wheN i shoWed him the butterflY with 4 legZ, heY, so are butterflieZ insectz?
theN ZY sAw me sitting on the lobbY coucH after schooL......and he dropped by me and sAt next to me and stArted askinG me if i wAz ok....and he sAid i looK depressed...........
afteR ZY pAtted my shoulder and lefT......somehow Adrian cAme towardz me and asked whAt i wAz waiting for. i wAz smS-ing a growtH spelL to Agatha (cuZ she wAz at IMCB waiting for her ecoLi to groW) then...so i sAid coldly thAt i am sMs-ing......and theN sAid i am stAining cellz with 2ndAry Antibody and waiting for thAt. didn'T even look at hiM.....theN he sAid it waz so cold here why did i chooZe to sit here in the lobbY? i sAid i feeL liKe it. theN he wenT outside to sit at the opeN bencheZ.
the trutH iz....the 2ndAry Ab timing wAz up alreAdy! i wAz juZ so tired....i needed to sloucH and resT at the lobbY coucH..........so i did, and prActised 15min of mettA meditAtion.
mY.....i hoPe i am oK. perhApz i'M juZ too busY.....witH everythinG pilinG uP!!!!!!!!
anywAyz...beeN missinG tuitioN time and agAin.....
theN az for Adrian, now his new fouNd acAdemic compAnions will be Luqun and James. sigH........it felT weird lookinG at hiM sittinG witH them now in the lecT theAtre insteAd of witH me. howeveR, i juZ gottA let go of thiZ thoughT and stAy hAppy alone. he iz not a worthY friend i bliVe.
somehoW... i chAnged my subjecT combi. to mAtch hiz (not totAlly cuZ of hiM, it'Z inclusiVe of lotZa other reAsonz), and he choZe to grouP with hiZ new compAnions for one of the 7-dAy prActical thAt we hAve...........he cleArly hAd a choice, but he choZe it the otheR wAy. i cAn't be angrY or pissed off...or i don'T knoW, but if i were hiM, i would grouP with a "frieNd" who chAnged hiz combi to mAtch mine. juZ feeL so duH...
ah-hA....and another dAy....after the lecT @ LT20...i wz rushing off bAck to the lAb....so i sAid a quicK bYe specificAlly to ZY and Zhisheng...and non-specificAlly to Adrian. theN went up the stAirs...waiting for the crowd to exiT slowly...theN Adrian came up too and said something liKe "v sian, still hAve to wait until....blAh". and i did not respond at alL!!!! hahAaa...yAy, thAt'z the wAy illZ!!!!
gottA respond hiM the wAy he alwAyz reacted to whAtever i sAy = no responSe.
mAy all be welL and hAppy...
illZ...
posted by illZ wonG at 8:30 AM
1 Comments:
xHz, thanks for your words of encouragement... You cheer up too, keep looking forward and you will find real friends... I hope you can research someway to grow new brain cells ;) I need lots of them... Cya at Mdm Teow house next week... Cheerio!
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