illZone

the crAnberriez are bAck~!!!

2012-01-24T19:02:00.001-05:00

tomorroW~
illZ.

leAning stArz.

2012-01-24T18:50:00.002-05:00

the 1sT tiMe i heArd thiz song...waz lAte one night in lAb when Joe was plAying hiz song selectionz on grooveshArk, and i decided to ask for the song titLe afteR i heArd the 1sT liNe:

"vAnilla twilighT" - owL citY.

the stArz are leAning dowN?
illZ.

whY-ah-ai?

2012-01-19T23:57:00.002-05:00

"寂寞像永恒.
像过客不闻不问."

"永远是不可能满分."
源

the identicAlity withiN the unidenticAlity.

2012-01-09T22:40:00.009-05:00

bedoK jettY - tAken and blogGed by me for 7tH mAy 2007

woW.

it hAz beeN 4+ yrzzZ...

~~~~~~~~~~~

if i aM in singApore right now, i wouLd be sittinG on bedoK jettY. simplY lookinG out into the seA, listeninG to the wAvez, and enjoyinG the seA breeZe.

i loVe the seA.

prettY mucH liKe whAt Ace of Hearts in The Solitaire Mystery doeZ all the tiMe.

here in bAltimore...it'z a hArbor citY, but it'z differenT froM the seA?

differenT, yeT the sAme seA.

sAme.

bcuZ the oceAnz are all connecTed az a huGe wAter bodY...

~~~~~~~~~~~~~

i wouLd sit @ bjettY @ dusK, and chAt witH the seA.

the seA repliez witH soundz of her wAvez and the twirlinG soundz of the seA breeZe...

righT now, the seA iz sobbinG.

az she criez...she'z drowNed and drencHed in her own teArz. no one knowZ bcuZ she'Z in her perfecT dizguiZe.

and eveN wheN she'Z lAughing, no one knowZ.

it seeminglY soundZ the sAme.

but it'Z totAlly differenT.

differenT.

i mizz the seA.

~~~~~~~~~~~~~

"听海" - A*Mei

listeninG. :(
illZ.

我哭不出来。

2012-01-09T21:22:00.005-05:00

《哭不出来》 - 阿密特

我想哭，
我哭不出来。
空荡迷糊的世界，
困锁在眼泪的旋涡中。

存在？
源。

Truth truly hurts. :(

2011-12-27T11:56:00.001-05:00

w.h.Y?

2011-12-22T13:55:00.001-05:00

impermAnence.

2011-12-19T01:34:00.001-05:00

"你在烦恼什么吗？" bY sodAgreen.

illZ.

see-anN.

2011-12-16T10:54:00.001-05:00

arthuR xmAz...

2011-12-03T16:50:00.003-05:00

so, beinG sAnta iz a monArchy systeM.....beinG pAzzed dowN froM one generAtion to the nexT? kindA interestinG to knoW there'Re only 20 sAntaz so fAr.

a lovelY movie...and i'M imprezZed by arthuR'z undyinG xmAz spiriT~ ;)

hopinG for a merrY xmAz.
illZ.

a momentO.

2011-12-01T15:28:00.007-05:00

"a momentO" - bY sodAgreen (concerT liVe versioN)

"
missing thoughtZ trAnzfigured into a simpLe line, whicH extendz itseLf witH tiMe...and it becAme so lonG thAt it divided our worLd into 2.

it'Z sprinG for hiM...and the leAvez juz felL froM my tRee...they juZ felL bcuZ it'Z fAll oveR here.

if we don'T eveR meeT agAin...*tearZ* ...theN wilL you mizz me bAzed on memoriez of uz togetheR? our love couLd hAve beeN remembeRed witH perfectioN...

hiZ lookZ hAve chAnged...witH the scenT of a new pArtner lingerinG on hiM...a new scenT lingerinG on hiM...

in thAt one momenT...you finAlly reAlized the one you trulY loVe...enN...hAz perisHed froM thiZ worLd on the dAy you sAid goodbYe...
"

a momentO.
illZ.

bAck to NYC...

2011-11-29T00:07:00.008-05:00

a coupLe of monthz ago...i remembeR a2 repeAting thiz song wheN we all bunKed into her apArtment in NYC..she waz singinG to thiZ song afteR a feW drinkzzZ...

and theN i heArd see-whY plAy thiz sonG whiLe i bunKed in witH her in ithacA over thAnkzgiving...it wAz very quieT and i asKed her to plAy some songz...and she plAyed thiz sonG too....perhApz she remembeRed it froM listeninG to it @ a2's apArtment?

"need you noW" bY lAdy antebelluM.

the lyricz are exceptionAlly well writteN.

"yez i'd rAther hurT thAn feel nothinG @ all..."

izn't it betteR to feeL nothinG thAn to feel hurT? it iz betteR, but often timeZ, one wouLd consciouzlY or unconsciouzlY chooZe the lAtter.

it'z 0.25 afteR 1...
illZ.

nehmiNd.

2011-11-12T13:52:00.004-05:00

"Someone Like You" by Adele.

Jokingly, I would sing aloud the techno version of the chorus of this song to entertain my friends:

"Nevermind I'll find someone like yoo-oo-oo-oo-oo-oo-ou..
I wish nothing but the best...for yo-oo-oo-oo-oo-oo-ou.."

Vivid remembrance of the melancholy.

nehmiNd lAh..?
illZ.

seriouzlY?

2011-11-06T20:36:00.000-05:00

seriouzlY...i feeL liKe i hAve teleporTed into iowA...............
illZ

这次是自己而不是谁？

2011-11-06T00:13:00.001-04:00

anotheR dAy, anotheR disAppointment...

2011-11-05T23:14:00.002-04:00

the worsT feelinG i feeL iz not onlY to disAppoint myseLf, but to disAppoint otherZ who cAre for me and whoM i cAre for.

seriouzlY, i shouLd moVe to iowA.
illZ.

...and my dArk wAltz begAn. :(

2011-11-02T23:13:00.001-04:00

6aM...

2011-10-28T08:09:00.002-04:00

woW, wAlking towArdz my lAb....@ 6aM trulY openZ a whoLe neW morninG worLd to me~!!!

remindz me of wAlking to schooL so eArly underneAth the dArk skY in primAry schooL......bAck wheN pakpAk wilL be holdinG my hAnd and we hAd to crozz the underpAzz to get to my primAry schooL...

i uzed to be sucH an eArly biRd - i shAll striVe to converT my vAmpirey scheduLe to an eArly biRd scheduLe......shAll highlighT the possibilitY withiN thiZ impossibilitY~!!!!!

enN...

manAged to wAke up so eArly thAnkz to a speciAl alArm i hAve witH me all nighT~ ;^)

amAzing worLd of the eArly birdzzZ...
illZ.

and the dArk wAltz beginzzZ...

2011-10-20T00:21:00.002-04:00

"dArk wAltz" - hAyley westenrA

az the dArknezz shroudzzZ...
illZ...

true loVe iz preciouzzZ.

2011-10-18T19:46:00.007-04:00

"regreT" - mAviz hee

"
let'Z stoP blAming eAch otheR...
leT our pAzt be forgotteN.

unlezZ we let go of the burdenZ withiN our heArtz...
alL of whAt we uzed to hAve wilL remAin losT.

you alwAyz liKe to tAg onto the pAst...
feAring the pAst wilL go to waZte.

whY do you thinK you hAve to fAll in loVe a few more timeZ to experieNce life?

~~~~~~

insteAd of lettinG you wilT in my armZ, i wouLd rAther you regreT afteR mAking youR miztAke.

allowinG you to flY towArdz your dreAmworld...leAving me aloNe in my melAncholic worLd.

insteAd of weAkening you witH my loVe, i wouLd rAther you be teAring froM beinG hurT.

do you need to experieNce alL the possibLe sAdnezz...
to understAnd how preciouZ true loVe iz?
"

and it'Z nonexistenT in the physicAl worLd...
illZ...

a dAte on a coLd nighT。

2011-10-17T22:26:00.006-04:00

“dAte” - Kit 陈。

“
还是往常一样的赴约
不是往常一样的感觉
冷冷的玻璃
喧闹的世界
迟来的你
下雨的夜。

还是一样匆匆的出现
还是说着一样的抱歉
玫瑰花瓣
桌上枯萎
也不会发现
像每个昨天。

唱着感伤的歌。。
看出今晚抉择。。。

默默分手
心中泪落。

忍住所有的痛。。
爱情走到最后。。。

你可知道？
窗外冷雨
在哭。
”

so coLd。
illZ.

yezterdAy wAz a cold nighT...

2011-10-03T21:01:00.001-04:00

"opeN armZ" bY journeY:

http://grooveshark.com/s/Open+Arms/3r7aXC?src=5

brrR...
illZ.

w.h.Y?

2011-09-20T01:54:00.004-04:00

"幸福額度" bY sodAgreen

surpriZed @ thiZ new sonG bY sodAgreen...it'Z alwAyz nice to enjoY the muzicAl creAtivity of qinG fenG...feelZ like thiz song'Z cAlling @ me.

thougH simpLe, i fiNd it hArd to trAnzlate thiz sonG...liKe how i usuAlly do witH otherzzZ.

whAt iz hAppinezz?

oh whY?

No one knows.

w.h.Y?
illZ

a drunkeN mind withiN a dyinG dreAm...

2011-09-07T20:55:00.015-04:00

wAz drivinG in the rAin and i kepT repeAting thiZ sonG bY fAye:

王菲'z "美错"。

"
originAlly, we vowed to viziT the seAside...
buT we losT our wAy and fouNd a swimminG pooL insteAd.
a pooL thAt iz beAutifully bLue..
and thiZ iz how we begAn...
witH a bLue trAnzlucent rippLe kickstArting a set of memoriezzZ...

you gAve me a meteoriTe thAt felL froM the skY...
i'Ve alwAyz miztooK thAt az a perfecT diAmond.
i'Ve neveR seeN itz imperfectionzzZ...
i'Ve encruzTed it on my rinG...
and i'Ve neveR dizcoveRed any lozZ in doinG so.

you mAke me emotionAl...
my senZe of loGic hAz losT itz reAsonability.
at leAzt i hAd a shorT period of hAppinezz...
i don'T cAre if he'Z reAl or you'Re fAke or who'Z my finAl deztinAtion...
it'Z a gifT to be opinionAted abouT myseLf.

eitheR the arrivAl'z too eArly...or the arrivAl'z too lAte.
somethinG doNe wronG in a beAutiful wAy mAkez it closezT to reAlity.
in spiTe of beinG in a comA...or an occAsional wAking up froM a dreAm...or an occAsional choice to giVe uP...
the greAtezt joY of livinG iz simplY as sucH...
thiZ iz probAbly...the percepTed ideAlity of livinG witH a drunkeN mind and dyinG withiN a dreAm...
"

a drunkeN mind withiN a dyinG dreAm...
illZ.

oucH~!!!!!!!

2011-08-24T16:12:00.008-04:00

seriouzly, the loiterinG persistenT tinglinG pAin @ my loweR bAck iz trulY irritAting.

verY torturouzlY diztrActing~!!!

it all leAdz me bAck to a service injurY froM SAF wheN i wAz in OCS ....whicH in summAry iz a permAnent spinAl frActure thAt wilL neveR heAl and an injurY thAt forbidz me froM any strenuouz exerciZe foreveR = me hAving weAk spiNe of a very very oLd mAn wheN i am a kindA younG mAn righT noW. >.<

guezZ i'M reAlly gettinG old...or perhApz i juZ cAnnot withstAnd consecutiVe loooooooonG flightZ and buz tripzzZ anymoRe...

i alreAdy didn'T initiAte any bAllroom dAncing prActize and also stopPed potteryinG for like 2 or 3 weekzzZ...consideRed thAt az restinG my bAck buT stilL - the pAin iz foreveR...but thAnkfully tolerAble - stilL. >.<

hmM, all righT...shAll trY to sit uP strAight and be more awAre of my poztuRe~

oucH...oucH.
illZ.

h.A.t.e.u

2011-08-19T02:45:00.002-04:00

"h.A.t.e.u" by mariAh cArey.

mariAh'z beAuty iz undeniAble.

buT listeN cArefully to the lyricZ and her voice.....clicK the followinG if you don'T wannA be diztrActed by her muZic vid:
http://grooveshark.com/s/H+a+t+e+U/2ISqSM?src=5

whAt'z and w.h.Y. hAtred?
illZ.

biG rAin...

2011-08-19T02:08:00.003-04:00

suddenlY sAng thiZ sonG aloud az we wAlked awAy froM the metropolitAn muzeuM of arT - i guezZ i kindA scAred/surpriZed fAith mei mei?

alL inspiRed bY the pourinG rAin...

"biG rAin" bY wa wA.

thiZ iz a sonG i sinG aloud wheN it rAinz...

feelZ liKe it'z rAining all the tiMe nowadAyz - an externAl rAin, coupLed tightlY witH an internAl rAin.

it'Z clicHe to sAy thAt the externAl rAin representZ the heAvenly teArz...theN perhApz the internAl rAin representZ the heArtly teArz.

~~~~~~~

wheN i wAz drivinG througH the rAin yezterdAy, i suddenlY turNed off chriztinA aguilerA's "keepz gettinG betteR" on my CD...and begAn singinG mariAh'z "througH the rAin" on acappellA mode...

thiz'Z my secoNd theMe song alongside mariAh'z "cAn't tAke thAt awAy".

"througH the rAin" bY mariAh cArey.

righT noW, i am drencHed...and i shAll embrAce the rAindropzzZ and keeP wAlking on througH the rAin~!!!

enN~!!!

wan quAN de shi qu fang xiang...
illZ.

p.S.: "..and i liVe oNe moRe dAy..."

glAd... :^)

2011-08-15T12:23:00.002-04:00

thin.

afteR >1.75yrz.

kinG.
illZ.

theMe

2011-08-12T12:50:00.000-04:00

Mariah Carey - Can't take that away by JulyN

sonG.
illZ.

i am the greeN ninjA~!!!

2011-08-10T14:12:00.006-04:00

私は緑の忍者〜です！
Watashi wa midori no ninjadesu〜 !!!

そして私は私の戦争を戦うために戻って午前!
Soshite watashi wa watashi no sensō o tatakau tame ni modotte gozen~!!!

and i aM bAck to fighT my wAr~!!!
illZ~

"Life has to be tough to be meaningful, and to feel like you're actually living a life." -Tak (Historian) and illZ (Pathobiology Ph.D. student).

2011-08-09T04:42:00.001-04:00

.

2011-08-01T22:17:00.001-04:00

i wAnt to thinK a thoughT so difficulT to thinK and i aM suRe i cAn thinK it.

hou nAn goH.
illZ.

ZOMG

2011-07-29T15:36:00.001-04:00

juz did the silliezT lAb miztAke.....

gosH~.

LOL~!!!!!
illZ

"time iz preciouzzZ and it'z slippiN' awAy..."

2011-07-25T05:10:00.002-04:00

"nobodY wAntz to be lonelY" - bY rickY mArtin & chriztinA aguilerA~

the besT vocAlz duetinG...reAlized thiz iz a greAt KTV dueT~!!! buT it'Z hArd to find someone who cAn reAch chriztina'Z pitcheZ... ;^)

"nobodY wantz to crY..."
illZ...

我很愉快的在 hwAit 啊～！！！

2011-07-22T11:08:00.001-04:00

http://grooveshark.com/s/+/3uWCoE?src=5

hwAiting~!!! <3
illZ~

hwAit~!!!

2011-07-22T04:12:00.002-04:00

thAnkz sZ25~!!! ^o^

hwAit aaaaH~!!!!!!
illZ~

"hwaiting! hwaiting! HWAITING!!!!" hahAhaahha~~~ ♥

2011-07-22T03:36:00.001-04:00

yooN loi doh moh hoH siu...

2011-07-22T02:18:00.003-04:00

"zoI" bY lezlie cheunG.

thAnkfully i remembered Ally'z insurAnce expirez todAy~!! thoughT it wAz tomorroW...woW....cAlled my insurAnce compAny abouT midnighT...LOL~

conclusioN: cAlling theM personAlly sAved me ~$150~!!!

stilL, i spenT a coupLe hundredzzZ juZ liKe thAt on mY allY...

gonnA be reaaaAlly thriftY thiZ montH~!!!

shAll resisT froM dininG ouT...and theN cAn splurGe and enjoY reunitinG witH sZ25 in NYC very sooN~!!!!! ;P

sunG wuud...zAen hAii mmm yong yI goH...
illZ.

不完美也要精彩～！！！

2011-07-20T02:32:00.000-04:00

生活精彩不精彩。 >.<
源

SERIOUZLY WTF??!

2011-07-20T01:39:00.000-04:00

钱不是万能的，不过没有钱可就万万不能。。。

2011-07-12T14:00:00.004-04:00

literAlly, a grAduate student'Z life = livinG froM pAycheck to pAycheck...

afteR hAving allY, life haz beeN freeeR and funneR...but @ a price tAg.

actuAlly, i cAn't reAson my financiAl situAtion witH allY. befoRe i hAve a cAr...i also speNd aloT on otheR thingzzZ...

oK, fAct = i eArn so littLe...buT juz enougH to get bY~

witH ally'Z insurAnce cominG uP...hmM, shouLd i add collisioN? and/or comprehensiVe? seemZ redundAnt but welL...i gottA rethinK the meAning of the woRd "insurAnce".

yeA, baobAo'z correcT.......cArz are simplY moneY suckerZ~!!!

argH - i gottA cut dowN on fuN spendinG...otherwiZe i mighT not be abLe to flY hoMe in the cominG cnY~!!!!!

buT theN life withouT fuN...iz not a life?! LOL~ okoK...shAll not be so livelY in life...

if onlY there'Z an orgAnization thAt aidz gforeigN grAduate studentZ on theiR trAveling bAck hoMe...

...
illZ...

百读不厌..... ♥

2011-07-11T18:02:00.005-04:00

What is real?

What is unreal?

What is real and unreal at the same time?

the 浊克儿~
illZ.

还醒着。。。慢慢数着伤痕。

2011-07-08T20:49:00.004-04:00

visiTed niagarA fAllz over the 4tH of julY independeNce dAy weekeNd with jerrY, judY, and mAck~!!!

gottA orgAnize my photoZ and posT theM on fAcebook~!!

durinG our looooonG cAr ridezzZ...we kepT plAying sAndy lAm'z clAssic loVe songzzZ...the lyricZ are so skillfullY crAfted...:

"scAr" bY sAndy lAm.

scArred.
illZ.

纸是包不住火的玫瑰。。。

2011-07-08T14:12:00.002-04:00

illZ.

on the nighT thAt iz too dArk...

2011-07-02T23:49:00.001-04:00

“夜太黑” bY sAndy lAm

the alcohoL burnT everythinG into asH.
illZ.

”有一天真如果，有一天。。。但愿我还在你记忆中。“ -.-

2011-06-30T13:18:00.002-04:00

“担心” - 陈洁仪

“这城市太过拥挤，满座的爱情电影。。。”

“用白天，用黑夜，用思念 - 拥着你。” ♥

-.-
illZ

a-cH......mosAic~

2011-06-29T13:28:00.002-04:00

the crAck withiN the crAck iz heAling~!!! ;^)

;^)
illZ~

When does Summer end?

2011-06-17T14:08:00.001-04:00

onlY teArz aRe genuiNe...

2011-06-17T00:40:00.004-04:00

i thinK i firsT heArd thiZ sonG wheN Xie Yi wAz singinG it bAck in the potAssium hydroxide lAb...

i don'T knoW whY i suddenlY thoughT of it, afteR a feW yeArz...in mY currenT lAb:

“我要快乐” bY a*meI~

"i wannA be hAppy...
i wannA be abLe to sleeP in peAce...
there'Z a certAin persoN...
who feelZ wArm onlY wheN i stopPed hugginG hiM...
who i stoP hAting onlY wheN he disAppeared...
i shouLd hAve relinquisHed my loVe wAy befoRe noW...

i wannA be hAppy...
i'M unafrAid of lAughing so embarrassinglY loudlY...
the heArt'z noT wArm at alL...
everythinG iz fAke~!!
onlY teArz aRe genuiNe..."

teArz of hAppinezz...if onlY..?
illZ.

i need a mAn who cAn see the righT withiN the wronG:

2011-06-13T23:07:00.004-04:00

"the edGe of glorY" - lAdy gagA

seriouzlY, thiZ sonG iz slowlY cAtching my audiobudzzZ liKe an ultrA deliciouZ melody-steW~!!!

~~~~~~

hmM...hAd a weiRd dreAm. hAven't seeN a persoN for liKe 10 yrz? and he hAd to appeAr in my dreAm lasT nighT.

~~~~~~

foreveR heR littLe monsteR,
illZ.

“十分酒醉七分疲惫。。。不是想沉睡！噢。。。醒不来。。。”

2011-06-13T12:21:00.000-04:00

“醒来你依然不会在。。。”

“醒来我还是。。。发呆。”

醒不来。
illZ~

"Don't waste my tear~!!!" -bY the mermAid-

2011-06-12T13:38:00.001-04:00

mutAnt & pRoud~

2011-06-12T13:37:00.001-04:00

sAd moviezzZ...

2011-06-12T13:27:00.009-04:00

i sAw a ktV vid in a suddeN rAre flAshback of my childhood...it'Z Sue Thompson's 'Sad Movies":

"and in the middLe of the coloR cArtoon i stArted to crY..."

unsuRe if it'Z the exAct sAme vid in my memorY? buT @ leAzt i goT the sonG righT~!!! ;P

it wAz the ktV systeM @ vincenT uncle'Z houZe...and i wAz witH my siblingzzZ and cousinZ. vincenT uncLe ofteN bringZ us out to plAy and also bAck to hiZ houZe to plAy arouNd...i don'T recAll my childhood welL, buT the ktV singinG wAz one of the moRe intermittentlY viVid onezzZ.

perhApz thAt wAz wheN i dizcoveRed i so loVe singinG and ktV-ing...LOL~

i trulY mizZ our kite flyinG @ Marina South...that was when vincenT uncLe tAught uz how to fly kitez...and how to flY theM verY welL~!!! welL enougH to cuT the stringZ of otheR kitezzZ...LOL~ ;P

thAt'z whY everytiMe i see a kiTe in the skY, i wouLd zooM in to tAke a photo of it...thiZ iz the latesT one tAken whiLe i wAz @ oceAn citY:
http://www.facebook.com/photo.php?pid=8926640&l=1b0c43cb70&id=665052497

sigH, in lovinG memorY of vincenT uncLe. <3

~~~~~

After an insightful gathering with 2 of my friends last night, I conclude that whether a movie is sad or not...is not decided by the content of the movie. It depends on the innate mood of the person watching the movie.

A person can even cry during a comedy, if he/she is sad while watching the movie.

~~~~~

thiZ iz a week filled with tearzzZ from different human-beingzzZ...

emotionZ cAn trulY hurT...
illZ.

已平息的涟漪铺盖着寂静的湖水。

2011-06-06T10:57:00.001-04:00

“涟漪” bY 陈百强

a sonG thAt depictZ inneR peAce.
illZ.

inneR peAce.

2011-06-04T00:28:00.001-04:00

fAct of my life = trAffic jAm...and i'M alreAdy lAte...

2011-06-03T11:56:00.001-04:00

"iroNic" bY alAniz morisetTe

whAt'z my fAvorite jAm? strAwberry jAm~!!!!!!!

whAt jAm do i hAte the mosT? trAffic jAm~!!!!!

so jAmmed~
illZ.

我真的有点累。。。

2011-06-02T00:18:00.001-04:00

“不必在乎我是谁” by 林忆莲

thAnkfully there'Z coffee in thiZ worLd~!!!
illZ~

looking forwArd to the t-stormZ lAter~!!!!!

2011-06-01T15:37:00.001-04:00

HOT~!!!!! MELTING IN THE SUN~!!!!!

2011-05-31T10:06:00.001-04:00

5/24/11 - one of the weirdezt and interestingezt dayz of my life in U.S.A. ...

2011-05-24T12:36:00.000-04:00

>.<
illZ...

oy-ee-oY~!!!!!

2011-05-20T14:18:00.003-04:00

a gAng fighT on a fridAy~!!!!!!!

"gAng fighT"

alL hAil to the bAd lip reAder~!!! :^)

hahAa~!!!
illZ

to tAlk withouT thinkinG = to shooT withouT aiminG

2011-05-19T23:04:00.007-04:00

"not reAdy to mAke nice" bY the diXie chickZ.

My neurons are rather sneaky...they remember words said to me before and store them in secluded corners of my brain.

Occasionally, they spell out the exact sentence in my mind when I am either listening to a song...walking, driving, doing pottery, or running a DNA maxi gel.

"You have to learn how to think before you speak."

"I would like to meet you one more time before I leave Baltimore."

"You're too nice..."

"Nepotism~"

"You're the fastest walker around here." hahAa~!!!

"Zou meh dou hou, zee yew lei hoi saam zau hou."

"Mmm mou lyoon lei."

"woo woO"
illZ.

so...the fortuNe teller'Z righT~

2011-05-15T01:03:00.001-04:00

"torN" bY nAtalie imbrugliA

"illusioN neveR chAnged....into somethinG reAl...i'M wide awAke and i cAn see the perfecT skY iz torN..."

juZ so mAny thingZ.
illZ.

cha-chinG on the lefT & ba-blinG on the righT~

2011-05-11T16:28:00.002-04:00

coconuT mAn...moonheAd...and peA.

pAying witH loVe tonighT~
illZ

i loVe you mamAk~!!!

2011-05-11T16:01:00.002-04:00

the brilliAntest Mother's Day song...:

"A Biologist's Mother's Day Song" by Cadamole

for makmAk~
illZ.

it'z beeN so loooonG siNce i aM imprezZed by someoNe. ;^)

2011-05-09T16:27:00.001-04:00

kudoZ to j.L~!!
illZ.

:(

2011-05-08T18:17:00.001-04:00

还是。。。

2011-05-07T03:42:00.001-04:00

"i asK girlfriend how you beeN?"

不爱就不发呆。

不得不爱。。。还是。。。
源。

Right back @ me: "Anything is possible..." -BHoP-

2011-05-04T09:49:00.002-04:00

hmM...a good reminder with a sinceRe looK iz greAtly appreciAted @ sucH an appropriAte tiMe~!!!!!

<3
w.h.Y?

a grAduate student'Z life = the tRue meAning of livinG froM pAy checK to pAy checK... "\(>.<)/"

2011-05-03T13:14:00.000-04:00

"The modern world has so much troubles." -Q.W.-

2011-05-02T16:36:00.001-04:00

ZOMGosh...dizlocation iz horrible.

2011-04-29T14:25:00.001-04:00

2011-04-25T21:36:00.000-04:00

"没有饭啊??!!!" LOL~!!!! ;P

2011-04-24T01:08:00.001-04:00

flyinG awAy~!!!!

2011-04-21T03:47:00.002-04:00

"one dAy i'lL flY awAy" - nicoLe kidmAn

"
我跟从着黑暗。。。不能忍受光明。
我何时能够又再重生？

有一天。。。我会自由飞走。。。
把这一切都抛到昨天。。。
你的爱还能为我做些什么？
我的爱何时才会有个了断？

为何为了一个接着一个的梦想而活？
最终梦醒时只有伤感。。。
“

flyinG awAy~!!!!!!!
illZ.

半途而废？

2011-04-20T11:50:00.005-04:00

"半途而废" bY fAye.

不～！！！！！
源。

thAwing the sobeR cHef.

2011-04-20T01:56:00.009-04:00

juZ az i blogGed abouT thAwing myseLf...

i thAwed thiZ vAcuum-pAcked chickeN thigH froM costcO and turNed it into a deliciouZ spicY disH~~~ it shAll be my luncH tomorroW~~~

cookinG therApy alwAyz workZ~!!!

the sobeR cHef hAz begAn hiZ missioN~!!! and he needZ to buY moRe sugAr~~~ ;^)

~~~~~

alSo, the PCR freezeR in the lAb wAz kindA thAwed.

whY...whY am i the one to returN to lAb kindA lAte at nighT to set uP pcrZ and theN dizcoveR the ajAr freezeR dooR? thiZ mAkez me lAugh...~

hmM, i sAy...my lAb shouLd owN ~10 PCR mAchinez....seriouzlY?!

anywAyz, i leArnt thAt you hAve to twisT the temperAture diAl inside the freezeR for it to "wAke uP" afteR the dooR hAz beeN lefT ajAr for some tiMe.

~~~~~

argH, and whY do i keeP injurinG my righT hAnd? juZ knocKed it agAinzt the corneR of a lAb bencH...luckily NOT on my alreAdy bAdly bruiZed thumB, whicH stilL hurtZ...

~~~~~

"befoRe the snoW meltZ" - sodAgreen.

"
on a certAin nighT, you lefT me.
on a certAin dAy, you wAlked towArdz me.
aT a certAin momenT, i understood...
a certAin kind of loVe thAt belongZ to me.

wAndering @ the borderZ of my dreAm...
wheRe the worLd froZe in tiMe.
leAving me in solitude.

i see the wiNd approAching.
i heAr the cloudZ dizpersinG.
expectinG to meet uP witH youR loVe.
buT i end up hAving a frozeN snowY heArt.

the skY and eArth...
everything'Z not sloW and not fAst.
everything'Z not good and not bAd.
i'M focuZed but diztrActed...

endinG my wAsteful bliNd guesseS...
i'M unafrAid of wAking uP anymoRe...
endinG the unpeAcefulnezz...
there'Z sunlighT az lonG az there'Z dArknezz...

lettinG go of tiMe and spAce...
and thuZ attAining existeNce.

the suN replAcez the mooN...
and i wAke uP witH a smiLe...
"

thAwed.
illZ.

figmentzzZ of myseLf...

2011-04-19T00:10:00.009-04:00

Been dragging myself around in life - I wish time can be frozen.

Where'z Piper???

Somehow I froze my world? Maybe.

It's only now that I began thawing myself...I'd better make it fast and catch up with all I've sillily lost in the past 2 yearz.

Why doezn't Bloom and Stella exist in real life? I reckon they can help me along the way...but they are better off in their fantasy world~ And they don't even know I exist in reality.

Iz it too late, but izn't it never too late?

Or better late than never?

Well, never say never.

~~~~~

Apologiez acceptably unaccepted.

Enough of my apologiez.

~~~~~

it'Z alwAyz surprizinG to checK bAck @ Kurt and Sam's youtuBe pAge...i simplY adoRe theiR coverZ of songZ...the wAy they presenT them iz simplY amAzing, to the exteNt i prefeR listeninG to theiR versionZ:

"jAr of heArtz"

"who do you thinK you are?"

"born thiZ wAy"

"in the religioN of the insecuRe."

sAm singZ witH sucH energetic pAssion~!!! <3

figmentzzZ of myseLf...
illZ.

Princess Fourfeetnine

2011-04-18T11:06:00.005-04:00

"living without believing the best would not be living."
Princess Fourfeetnine

~~~~~

So, see-whY shared this blog entry by Princess Fourfeetnine with me:
http://fourfeetnine.com/2011/04/10/ah-kong-poh-poh/

It iz a touching dezcription of the loving relationship between her grandparentz.

I love her style of writing...bcuz she is very real. She usez alot of "wtf" in her blogposts...which makes it fun to read...oh, and thiz iz why she overusez "wtf":
http://fourfeetnine.com/why-i-use-wtf-so-much/

All hail to Princess Fourfeetnine,
illZ.

lAze.

2011-04-15T10:38:00.001-04:00

"the lAzy sonG" bY bruNo mArz.

lAze.
illZ.

seriouzlY, thumbZ are importAnt for breAking eggZ into a pAn...

2011-04-14T16:26:00.002-04:00

swolleN lefT eyelid...

2011-04-14T16:17:00.002-04:00

jerrY pAzzed me a tube of 扶他林, whicH wilL reduce swellinG of soft tissuez....

so i spreAded the creAm onto my righT thumB...and theN suddenlY felT exhAuzted. kindA fAceplanted onto the keyboArd whiLe gchAtting witH see-whY...and i fouNd a sofA to collApze on for a few hourZ.

woke up afteR 4.5 hrz...and i reAlized my lefT eyelid wAz swolleN...

ASPIRIN wAz whAt cAme to my mind.

~~~~~

so i wenT to reAd the tinY chineZe chAracterz on the tube of 扶他林...did soMe reseArch and reAlized it iz a pAin relieveR too~!!

argH...so, 扶他林 contAinz diclofenAc...the relAtive of aspiriN....theY are all memberZ of the NSAID fAmily...whicH i'M alleRgic to.

i liVe and leArn...LOL~
illZ.

OUCH~!!!!!!!!!!!

2011-04-14T16:07:00.007-04:00

allY is my cAr....my soN~~~

argH...he'Z being reAlly nAughty but pArtly my fAult...

i knoW it'Z tiMe to chAnge youR engiNe oiL...and i hAven't mAde an appointmenT yeT, but you don'T hAve to smAsh my righT thumB with youR dooR, righT?!

.....sucH a tAntrumy 10-yr-oLd boY...

and you eveN contiNued to be mizchievouZ abouT youR signAl lightZ...and the poweRed windowzzZ...

thiZ iz dAy 2, buT seriouzlY i bLed for 7 hrz~!!!!

noW, my right thumB iz significantlY lArger than my left thumB...ARGH~!!! >.<

allY, noW thAt i'Ve splurGe USD$1100+ on youR medicAl billZ, you aRe bAck az my good bAby boY agAin~!!!

my wAllet screAmz OUCH too...

oh allY...
illZ.

it'z tougH to be a dAd...

2011-04-14T16:03:00.003-04:00

so, jerrY hAd to mAke a quicK triP bAck to beijinG for an intervieW...

meanwhiLe, i tooK up the dutY of fetchinG him to and fro BWI, and also fetcH mAck (his soN) to and fro preschooL.

mAck'z only 5...so he needed a booster seat? yeA, i thinK thAt'z what it'Z cAlled.

hAving a kid in the cAr....reAlly mAde me be veeeeeeeeerY cAreful whiLe drivinG. not onlY the kid...eveN judY (jerry'Z wife) preseNce increAses my attentivenezZ.

~~~~~

seriouzlY, i admiRe all pArentz...

pArenthood iz simplY too mucH of a rezponsibilitY.

yeA, plz tAke a momenT to thinK abouT it.

i chAtted witH judY befoRe, and she toLd me she didn'T eveN thinK abouT gettinG mArried and now she'Z a muM. hahAaa...

noW i mizZ my pArentz,
illZ.

Building Sophie's Castle. :^)

2011-04-14T15:51:00.004-04:00

Review of "Sophie's Castle": http://lookingglassreview.com/html/sophie_s_castle.html

~~~~~

It was a late night in lab, and I happened to chance upon this book while chilling with a Sierra.

Ben bought this book for the lab...to somehow motivate the lab...and I guess it has been on his bookshelf all this while.

I sat down and read it, I think this was the first time I reaaaally read it. Perhaps the first was Ben reading it to me/us? ;^)

Building Sophie's Castle,
illZ.

no fighting no fightinG...buT it'Z tiMe to biaaaaaA~!!!!!!!!!!!!

2011-04-14T15:51:00.001-04:00

i'd betteR biaaaaaA~!!!!!!

2011-04-14T15:50:00.000-04:00

Oh wait, perhaps MVP Bus doesn't suck that much...really. ;)

2011-04-14T15:42:00.002-04:00

I need to clarify why I was bashing MVP...and why I chose to retract my bashing.

So, due to some administrative errors, I wasn't able to board the bus from Baltimore to NYC even though I registered early at the counter....like, come on?! I had to watch the bus leave right in front of me...and my friends had to wait for me at NYC...frameshifting our plans etc etc...

While I sat there, I posted my previous post.

~~~~~

During my trip...I was thinking about this issue when I have temporary moments to sit and think. My conclusion is, MVP Bus doesn't suck that much.

At least I was able to eventually claim 2 return tickets back from Dec 2009 and convert them into this round trip in Apr 2011.

However, their administration system is messy since they have 3rd party ticket sales going on...

~~~~~

MVP Bus, plz do something about yourself.

I'll try Bolt Bus for my next NYC trip. ;^)

Hmm,
illZ.

MVP Bus SUCKS BIG TIME!!!!!!!!!

2011-04-01T14:48:00.000-04:00

不是很可笑吗..?

2011-03-31T02:16:00.012-04:00

it'Z unstrAnge how alcohoL uzed to puT me to sleeP eAzily...

now, i'M stilL wide awAke eveN afteR drinkinG?

moRe?

nopeZ.

~~~~~

finAlly droVe to visiT myrnA foR my hAircut befoRe my NYC triP...whicH mAkez my hAir alot eAzier to styLe whiLe on the moVe...

cAn't wAit to visiT boztoN too~!! felT glAd wheN jerrY cAlled to offeR me to and fro rideZ to bwI~

1sT tiMe trAvelinG witH see-whY...hahAaa it wilL rocK big tiMe~!!! :P

~~~~~

it drizzLed abiT todAy.

whY don'T the rAin juz pouR?

~~~~~

"ain'T it funnY" bY jennifeR lopeZ.

"
我疯了。
爱。
你。

我们的恋情看似完美的。
最滑稽的是你确实犹如我想象中的爱人。
可是我们的生命中有不可改变的事实，
我只要求你告诉我你明白和我一样的感觉。

在我脑海里完美的恋情。。。
我与你相守了一千世。。
但我们确实困在不完美的情景里，
所以我们多半不能在一起。

有些情感是无法否认的。。。不是很可笑吗？
就算你试着前进。。。却依旧停顿在原地。
维持着一些不该有的情感。。。不是很奇妙吗？
（我真希望这都是真的。。。）
一瞬间可以改变你的一生。。。不是很可笑吗？
而你不愿意面对对与错。。。
缘分也占有一份角色。。。不是很奇妙吗？
（在你心中的故事里。。。）

有时候我觉得真爱是不存在的。
我就相信它是不属于我的。
人生可是残忍的。。。我也无法解释清楚。
而我觉得我无法再一次面对它。。。

我对你很生疏却又很了解你。。。
我从你心里感觉到最深的让我完全信任的爱。。。
爱上了你改变了我原本的计划。
而现在我觉得我不必害怕。

我把我的心紧锁着。
但你却把它释放了。
拥有的感情。。。
束缚着我应有的生命。

我把你推到远处。。。
你却依旧靠在我身旁。
我觉得这表示。。。
我们是注定在一起的？
"

~~~~~

i wannA driVe and eAt @ the 24-hr dineR, liKe noW.

~~~~~

i wannA wAke up, on tiMe.

~~~~~

i wannA fAll asleeP.

~~~~~

i reAlly don'T wAnt to.

~~~~~

1000hrZ = 40000mileZ = 1460 dAyz.

是很好笑。。。
illZ。

confidAntly..?

2011-03-25T03:52:00.008-04:00

"confidAnt" bY tzX and zhM.

"
likinG youR fAce...
az beAutiful az an angeL...
buT you'Re uzinG smileZ to hide awAy...
alL the scArz on your tearinG heArt...
seeinG you balAncing your lonelinezZ in youR soliTude...
i feeL my heArt achinG...

likinG youR personA...
so genuinelY sinceRe...
youR sunshiNe smiLe wArmz my brokeN heArt...
you'Re a brAve man...heAling your own woundZ in soliTude...
you giVe me the genuinitY of friendshiP...

thAnk you...
foR listeninG to my lonelinezZ...
foR beinG witH me wheN i crY...
so i do not feAr the emptinezZ of an endinG...
mY heArt (my heArt) finAlly fouNd a confidAnt who cArez...

thAnk you...
foR understAnding my lonelinezZ...
allowinG me to crY my heArt out withouT worrieZ...
so i do not feAr the bitternezZ of beinG mizundersTood...
mY heArt (my heArt) iz dAncing for you on a stAge...

thiZ iz a coLd and heArtlezz worLd...
witH endlezZ stronG wiNd and pourinG rAin...
buT noW thAt i hAve you witH me...
it wilL neveR snoW in my heArt agAin...
"

confidAntly..?
illZ.

P.S.1: tzX = Tai Zheng Xiao = 邰正宵
P.S.2: zhM = Zhou Hui Min = 周慧敏

a sonG thAt sAyz it alL~

2011-03-24T16:18:00.005-04:00

whiLe i reAd the politicAl meAning behiNd thiZ sonG.....i'M noT into politicZ @ alL....hahAa...buT it'Z fuN and apT to direcT thiZ sonG towArdz whoeveR you wAnt.

i dedicAte thiz sonG to all who deserVe it:

"fucK you" bY lilY alleN.

"fucK you (fucK you)...fucK you very verY muuuuuuucH..."

"so plZ don'T stAy in toucH..."

cheerZ~
illZ.

sAyboomzzZ~~~

2011-03-18T16:41:00.001-04:00

a greeN riveR~!!!!

2011-03-17T16:00:00.003-04:00

woW, they actuAlly dye chicAgo riveR greeN on st. pAtrick'z dAy~!!!!!!!

froM 2sistersblog.com

INTERESTING. ;^)

oK, mizzed it thiZ yeAr...mAybe i'lL be crAzy enougH to visiT chicAgo nexT yeAr durinG sT. pAtrick'z dAy to see the greeN riveR~!!!!! ;P

nice~!!!
illZ.

"I think today is your favorite day of the year."

2011-03-17T15:12:00.010-04:00

One of my labmates said the above to me....yea I love green, and today is St. Patrick's Day.....where Green is embraced...

Yea, I love the Irish for their great personality (prev. postdocs in my lab) and music (The Corrs + Cranberries etc.)...but, today is not my favorite day.

I will never set a religious day as my favorite day:
http://en.wikipedia.org/wiki/Saint_Patrick's_Day

~~~~~

Guess I'm drifting further from my labmates...hmm, which is a good thing for now. But I really have to frameshift my schedule to be more normal like the others....though things work for now, but I know it's not so healthy to be too isolated...

Hmm, also, 2 persons liking the same thing doesn't mean they are likely to get along very well. Like, most might agree since it makes sense...but, 2 persons getting along well together depends on alot more factors...including intangible factors.

Usuallity.

LOL...the only unusual thing is I'm glad he talked to me bcuz we don't usually talk @ all.

w.h.Y?
illZ.

mAdhv:

2011-03-13T01:58:00.001-05:00

"you have forever to be dead, but only a short while to be alive
so even if life is painful, it's worth the experience, no?"

thAnkz mAdv for typinG sucH an inspirinG senteNce whiLe we gchAtted~!!!

;^)
illZ.

lozinG an houR.

2011-03-13T00:19:00.008-05:00

it'Z dAylight sAvingz tiMe adjuztmenT agAin...

but welL, i hAve losT lotzA hourZ.

i mizZed and mizZ my remindeR.
illZ w.h.Y?

My Deepest Condolences.

2011-03-12T17:40:00.005-05:00

For everyone who is still safely reading this or not reading this, we have to be glad we're simply safe and alive.

I am, for now.

Hmm, I blive it all happens from the Pacific Ring of Fire.

Z.O.M.g.
illZ w.h.Y?

an unputoutAble fiRe~

2011-03-11T03:49:00.006-05:00

"sophiA" - bY nerinA pAllot

i hAve noT heArd sucH an attrActive voice for a loooooonG tiMe.

where'Z mY sophiA? my nonexistenT sofiRe.

kudoZ to nerinA. ♥

unputoutAbility...
illZ.