bAck to NYC...

a coupLe of monthz ago...i remembeR a2 repeAting thiz song wheN we all bunKed into her apArtment in NYC..she waz singinG to thiZ song afteR a feW drinkzzZ...

and theN i heArd see-whY plAy thiz sonG whiLe i bunKed in witH her in ithacA over thAnkzgiving...it wAz very quieT and i asKed her to plAy some songz...and she plAyed thiz sonG too....perhApz she remembeRed it froM listeninG to it @ a2's apArtment?



"need you noW" bY lAdy antebelluM.


the lyricz are exceptionAlly well writteN.


"yez i'd rAther hurT thAn feel nothinG @ all..."

izn't it betteR to feeL nothinG thAn to feel hurT? it iz betteR, but often timeZ, one wouLd consciouzlY or unconsciouzlY chooZe the lAtter.


it'z 0.25 afteR 1...
illZ.

nehmiNd.

"Someone Like You" by Adele.


Jokingly, I would sing aloud the techno version of the chorus of this song to entertain my friends:

"Nevermind I'll find someone like yoo-oo-oo-oo-oo-oo-ou..
I wish nothing but the best...for yo-oo-oo-oo-oo-oo-ou.."

Vivid remembrance of the melancholy.


nehmiNd lAh..?
illZ.

seriouzlY?

seriouzlY...i feeL liKe i hAve teleporTed into iowA...............
illZ

这次是自己而不是谁？

anotheR dAy, anotheR disAppointment...

the worsT feelinG i feeL iz not onlY to disAppoint myseLf, but to disAppoint otherZ who cAre for me and whoM i cAre for.


seriouzlY, i shouLd moVe to iowA.
illZ.

...and my dArk wAltz begAn. :(